I will see the good...........

I had an experience at work last week that made me realize that I am absolutely the worst judge of character.  I am not good at picking out good people.  I trust.  I believe.  I see the good.  When it does not always come forward, I realize that I suck at reading people.  Really bad.

I promised myself that day that I would no longer trust that people are good.  And I won't trust my judgement when it comes to picking out sincerely good people. Trust no one- my new motto.

Today- after my second trip to Meijer for yet more mulch- I was anxious to get home and get it spread before the rain came.  While loading it, I noticed one more bag of big path chunks I needed.  So I loaded it up with the stuff I had already paid for.

When I drove back around to the nursery area, there were like 14 people in line.  My back was aching, my feet were tired and for crying out loud, I had already waited in that line- twice- today.

So I ran up to the next person in line and I extended $3 to her and asked that she throw another bag of path mulch on her order and she could keep the change.  Win Win- right?  She gave me the meanest smile- looked me right in my eyes- shook her head no and then said it too.  She was a mean woman. 

I cried.

She must have encountered so many people who have ripped her off, wronged her and lied that she trusts no one- and for her I hate that because it must be an aweful way to live.  Just aweful.  We live in such a fallen world.  I hate our stupid, non trusting, mean spirited fallen world sometimes.

Either that or I looked like a maniac sweaty mess of a woman who was running around waving dollar bills.  Either way- why be a big meanie?

I cried the entire time I was spreading all that stupid mulch.  What a mean woman.  I wanted to flip her off.  I really did.  But instead, I have tried to pray for her.  (I prayed that she'd feel bad for making me feel bad-just being honest)

Fallen world.  Stupid fallen world.

I decided today that I will still trust people to be good.  That is not a flaw in my character.  And I can not possibly live a life like that old bat at Meijer- I just can't.

Steal my purse, hack into my bank account, door knock my car in the parking lot.  I still believe people are fundamentally good.  I really do.

Tomorrow- no church (again) for me- we are heading to Grandma & Grandpa's, dropping the kids and Dan and Mamaw, me and possibly Ally are heading to IKEA!  Yeah IKEA! Yeah Me!  Speaking of being fundamentally good- I sure hope God isn't taking attendance at church- we've been huge slackers lately!

We still got your back God!  Even if we have it at IKEA!