Tuesday, August 16, 2011
And then there were none
The tears started filling my eyes around 30 minutes before he was due to be dropped off and eventually couldn't be disguised by my sunglasses anymore. He asked why I was crying. I explained that I was just so happy (which was a flat out LIE).
I know my job of parenting is far from over. But I feel such a loss that it makes my eyes sting just to think about it. Because all of my children are in school now. And the pre-school years of my life is slamming shut. All done. And for a woman who spent her entire childhood looking forward to raising babies, it feels like there isn't much left to hang on to right now. Other than waiting for the bus to bring my kids back home so that I can tell them to quit fighting, touching, poking and complaining about their dinner.
I feel kind of empty.