Sunday, December 20, 2009

The first............

This will be the first Christmas I will have celebrated Christmas without my Grandma Larsen.

During the last few years of her life, she didn't remember me. But I remembered her. I remembered enough for both of us.

When I would visit, which wasn't often, and now I realize should have been more, she would chat with me. But she would talk to me as though I was a stranger. Because to her, she had never met me before that moment. And that was okay.

I watched the strong, faithful woman I grew up with slip into a wheelchair bound physically weak woman. But her spirit, and her faith- it remained strong.

I have this overwhelming feeling this week to go and sit in her presence. But she is no longer with us, and I am missing her.

These ornaments on our tree, made by her and passed to me by my mom, are a reminder that she will always be a big part of my life.

And as I placed them on the tree this year, I realized how very much I miss her.


Ronda said...

I'm sorry you're missing her so much, but she left you some wonderful memories (and ornaments).

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the good cry.