Wednesday, November 27, 2013


It has been 13 years today since my dad left this earth.  I was 26 when he died.

I think back over just this last year and all the changes that have enveloped my family.  To even begin to comprehend how different my life looks now as opposed to 13 years ago is incomprehensible.  But I'm sure if my dad could be here, he wouldn't hardly recognize us. 

I have a home he never touched with his physical hands.  We attend a different church than the one he would visit us at.  I have children he never held and made duck noises at.  And the baby he would save his cookies for?  She's a young woman now.

Even though I sit here with tears streaming down my cheeks, I am thankful.  So thankful for our God who keeps His promises and who heals and mends.  The grieve, although still present, is such a small sparkle comparted to the giant ball of fire it began as.  I can laugh and feel no guilt.  I can go to my moms house and not instantly be overwhelmed by his absence.  I can talk to my kids about the grandpa they never met without feeling anger and pain.

It is good.  Well, it's okay anyway.  Because with life comes death, and with love comes grief.  Without love, there would be no pain in the passing.  So it is with thanksgiving that I still grieve the absence of my father- because he was loved.


GayEuro said...

my dad passed away as well. you brought tears to my eyes. you have beautiful writing.


hoang lien said...

Minecraft Skins . How do you feel if your charaters have very new and fashionable skins in many games of Minecraft at this Christmas and up-coming Tet holiday? It will be really fun. Now let me make it come true. I am so excited to be with you in every Minecraft game! 

Minecraft Mods
. Just like Skins, you seem to get so bored with some Minecraft mods you have ever used. Would you like to take part in extremely modern and great new games as well as experience the exciting atmostphere that you have never tried before? I guess all of you cannot wait more for these wonderful things. Let’s get started to join these games and I will show you how easy it is to find out the other Minecraft mods.

Minecraft Maps
. Hmmm… In Minecraft, I like this part most. Do you know why? Well, as you can see, Maps Minecraft is so great because you cannot discover any challenge in every game without Maps Minecraft. The wonderful. Minecraft Maps usually interest me so much but my PC configuration is not suitable. LOL…! However , I do not give up even no matter hard it is. Now I have much more Maps Minecraft than ever after a long time discovering. All of you are welcomed to visit my blog and take a look at these Maps Minecraft. LOL… All is for everyone who are keen on Maps Minecraft. I really hope our Minecraft community will gradually become greater and happier in near future.
Minecraft Texture Packs
. I rarely search about it , but I also have many Minecraft Texture Packs to share with you. 

Christmas and New Year are together coming! Wish you all happiness and best luck! I hope these great holidays will bring us millions of reasons to smile in life! Merry Xmas and Happy New Year!
Everything will finally be alright! Wish you a successful life! Your all
dreams will definitely come true! <3

Syed Store said...

My Dad passed away six year ago and I felt the same way, You are just speaking my mind there. You write amazing.

Wayne Mountan said...

Wayne Mountan